Hey, guys. Sorry for my disappearances lately. I'm not even gunna say "on hiatus" or "off hiatus". I'm still checking here daily, I just haven't had the time nor inspiration for anything special lately. Just now had a good inspiration, but I'm behind on my classes, SO! That will have to wait.

but here's some updates on what's going on with me...

For a bit, I had indeed disappeared and stopped checking here. Nothing to do with my luffly DA, but with my private life. I mentioned previously, I believe, that I had broken my engagement with Don, whom I had been with for 5 years. Don handled it well enough, for someone being dumped, but his family was another matter entirely. Since Don refused to tell them what happened, they made their own conclusions, and I started recieving strange messages from different people on different sites/through cell/etc about how I "used" him, and treated him badly... All not true, and last I checked Don and I had ended on good terms.
I've also been trying to contact Don about some things that we need settled before "moving on" I guess, but he has been ignoring my calls and not calling back, though he claims (by sending a message through someone else) that he is fine with me and nothing is wrong. I know for a fact he is not a part of the bad rumors in his family, though. Don't ask, I just do. He's just hiding from a problem - his feelings for me. Which is making life incredibly difficult for me, unfortunately. I would just like to get this over and done with, and then I'd leave him alone if that's really what he wanted, but well... Don's never been the brightest crayon in the box.

That drama is still going on, but I do have a new boyfriend now. It's been 3 weeks since we started kinda tentatively dating, and I'm loving every second of it. I know it seems I moved on fast - I felt horribly about it for a while. He was a friend, and was there for me when I was going through the breakup with Don, and helped me through some of the shit that followed. Things like that tend to accelerate a relationship, yaknow? I'm trying to just take my time with this relationship and not make the same mistakes I did with Don - I really want this to work out.

I'm also working to revamp my life. I had said before, I believe, but this time I'm actually doing it. I've been socializing, with the help of my new boyfriend, Roger, and have been trying to learn to communicate with others better. I've finally managed to beat some old issues having to do with building a fantasy world to hide from reality with... It's been over a month now, and I've felt no temptation to go back Depression still plagues me somewhat, and other medical issues, but I'll take what I can get for now, and work on the rest next time. Something is better than nothing, right?

So, back to Roger; I didn't think guys like him existed, to be honest. I've seriously been shocked by some things he's done/said/etc. and I'm not inexperienced in the field. I've had a couple serious, long-term relationships, and even more shorter, more casual ones to go from. I don't understand how he hasn't really had a good girlfriend before... but I'm glad. I get to be the one to teach him the ropes I'm so happy with him so far. But who isn't, at this early stage? Oh well, I best enjoy it more, then!! <3


So I guess that's all to say, for now. I'm actually at Rogers' place now, but he's at work. I'm hanging out with his cats. Who are demanding attention, so I must go! <3 adios!